everyday i keep realizing your just going to end up alone and by yourself, whatever you do don’t dare trust anyone but yourself. remember that. I’ve learned that the hard way. i guess from my past experience on trust gave me the truth on the outlook of people and the true meaning of trust, it’s within yourself.
i want that night where we laid in your bed with nervous hands ; our shoulders touched ; you kissed me and i couldn’t stop smiling.
i dont know who to believe anymore, what to believe anymore or if i should believe what i hear anymore. I’ll just have to believe what i think is the truth rather than wondering what to believe.
I want a boy who would shove ice-cream in my face. Who will wrestle with me. Who shows me off to his friends. Who treats me with respect. Who will call me at 4 in the morning and tell me he can’t stop thinking about me. Who sings to me; even if he can’t. Who could break my heart, but wouldn’t even dream of it.
i hoped to lose myself for good, i hoped to find it in the end, but not in me, but in you.
He plucked a huge orange leaf from the ground and handed it to me, found another and held it carefully by its thin stem, something to remember this by. it was corny, i know. but if you’ve fallen in love you’ve done it too, whether you admit it or not. You have a worn ticket stub or a paper napkin or a flower so dry its turning into dust. you experienced magic once, and you want to have a little evidence of that. you don’t want to forget it.
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i am incredibly awkward and negative. I get attached easily, and I hold on for too long. I don’t like opening up to people. Most five year old children can express their feelings better than me. I hide behind my fake smiles. I’m probably one of the most difficult people you will ever meet. But I can be sweet. I’m a great listener. I’ll guard your secrets with my life. I will never judge you based on your mistakes, and i’ll love you as much as I can. I can be, if you let me, one of the best things in your life
Commitment doesn’t scare me, the thought of committing to the wrong person does.